Alexandra Trusova: “For me the world had collapsed then. I don’t think I achieved anything at the Olympics. For me, there’s only one medal – gold, the rest aren’t medals.”
Alexandra Trusova about the Olympics.
original source: Maxim Trankov’s podcast “Free Program” / Channel One
Alexandra Trusova, in Maxim Trankov’s podcast “Free Program” on Channel One spoke about the Olympics and not getting into the team event. Here’s a translation of her comments.
Alexandra Trusova responded to the question of what competitive sports have taught her.
“Alexandra Trusova: Always be dissatisfied with what I do. I am never satisfied with my work, never. I always know it could have been better. Probably, this isn’t very good, but I don’t know how to praise myself.
This is especially apparent now that I have stopped living with my parents, all of my activities depend solely on me, and I realize that it’s my responsibility. I always feel like I could have done something better.
Q: Wait, you performed five quadruple jumps at the Olympics – and you still criticized yourself for that?
Alexandra Trusova: No, that was a goal, and it was accomplished, and I’m happy about that. After the Olympics, I was in such a state that I definitely didn’t blame myself. I lived with the fact that I achieved one goal and not another. Though I thought one would lead to the other. My work now is divided into different types of activities, and I still feel that I did something not quite right, could have done better.”
“Q: You know what else comes to mind besides the quadruples? Your emotions after the free skate. Do you rewatch that too?
Alexandra Trusova: There was a time when I rewatched it deliberately. Not now. Why should I? There are plenty of videos of that cut.
Q: Did you realize at that moment that you were being filmed? Or do you think such moments shouldn’t be captured?
Alexandra Trusova: At that moment, I absolutely didn’t care about anything. And there was no escape. I first tried to go under the stands, but they made me come out for the medal ceremony. I tried to stay away as much as possible, but it was impossible.
Q: Do you remember how several people were persuading you to go to the award ceremony?
Alexandra Trusova: I remember, of course. And the video shows it perfectly, even if I didn’t remember. I think anyone who has ever been in such a state would understand: at that moment, nothing external concerns you.
Q: Is everything you said just emotions? Or do you really think that way, you hate the sport, you know that someone knew something? All that you were shouting.
Alexandra Trusova: Hate the sport… A friend once told me: she was very scared when I could say “I hate”. And later, when she realized what “hate” means to me, everything fell into place for her.
For me, the meaning is not the same – it’s just that I hate it at that moment. It’s probably more about the emotions. As for knowing or not knowing… I can’t really know, I never heard anything.
Q: At that moment, everyone else was to blame.
Alexandra Trusova: Yes, for me the world had collapsed. What was I supposed to do at that moment? “Second place, how great, I was really looking forward to this moment.” But no.
Q: Really, does the Olympic gold medal so sharply divide life in two?
Alexandra Trusova: In my case, yes. For me, there are no other medals. I don’t think I achieved anything at the Olympics. For me, there’s only one medal – gold, the rest aren’t medals.”
“Q: How did you find out that you wouldn’t be in the team event at the Olympics?
Alexandra Trusova: The day before the short program, then the day before the free skate – not in advance. I saw the list on the Internet; nobody told me anything.
Q: Nobody came up to say: girls, we’re keeping everything as it is. Were you waiting for a decision?
Alexandra Trusova: Well, of course. I was always ready, even if they told me the day before. Or if they told me at night and I had to skate in the morning. I was always ready, ready every day to do everything as soon as we got there.
Q: Was participating important to you?
Alexandra Trusova: Yes, of course. I will repeat, this is possibly once in a lifetime, and I wanted to be on the Olympic ice as many times as possible.
Q: Was it a tragedy for you?
Alexandra Trusova: On the day of the free program, both Anya [Shcherbakova] and I skated a clean free skate in practice.
Q: Did you want to show the federation what you were capable of with that practice?
Alexandra Trusova: I don’t know. Probably, I was just set to skate the free skate, and that mindset remained. Not that I wanted to prove something. What’s the point of proving when someone else is performing at that moment, and you are at practice?
Q: Do you think such a decision was fair?
Alexandra Trusova: I don’t know. What, can I challenge someone’s decision? No.
Q: You can.
Alexandra Trusova: Just why? It’s already past. It doesn’t bother me anymore; it’s not that I don’t like to dwell on the past – it just doesn’t bother me anymore.
If there is an Olympics in my life – I hope to participate in the team event. Yes, I want to. I wanted to, and I want to participate in the team event.”
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