Evgenia Medvedeva: “I had my first love, it ended ugly. In a difficult moment, right after the Olympics, he told me in plain text: thank you, I don’t need you anymore.”
Evgenia Medvedeva in the video interview with her Ice Age partner Danya Milokhin told about her Olympics, retirement and personal life. Partly translated.
About the emotions after performing at the 2018 Olympics in Pyeongchang, where she won silver
How long did it take after the Olympics to let it go?
Evgenia Medvedeva: 3.5 (years). Danya (Milokhin) can tell what an uptight person I was, I was afraid to say something. Danya helped me to open up, I stopped sweating. I’m still bothering, I’m crazy.
I let it go when I saw that figure skating was completely different. The sport I was in is completely different. The setting, people, elements, people were completely different. I realized that that sport would never return. That time was the coolest for me.
I really liked the Olympics. Everything after that was difficult, let’s skip this topic. But at the Olympics itself, in the Olympic village, you feel like you won in life. If someone asked do you want to come back and repeat the Olympics? I would say 100% yes. It was really cool.
Even if it ended the same way? This is a strong disappointment.
Evgenia Medvedeva: Strong disappointment. I don’t care. It was very cool for me, I skated a free program – I had never felt such freedom. This is probably the state of Zen that every athlete strives for, but not everyone achieves. This 4 minutes I wasn’t thinking about the program, movements, I was thinking about life.
I do the step sequence in the middle of the program, I look around and ask myself: do you understand that you are at the Olympics? And I say yes. Such a small interview with myself.
The Olympics are like tough, scary, the whole world is watching. You’re scared? No, not at all. And if in the second half you just lie down and wipe the ice like ice resurfacer machine? I do not care.
At that moment as an athlete I was the happiest. Not from a human point of view, but as an athlete – I reached this peak. Like in the “Black Swan” movie – dance and die. It was about the same. I can’t say that it was the best evening then, but the best 4 minutes of my life for sure.
About ending sports career
Evgenia Medvedeva: I hate it all – come, sit down and say: “I made the decision to end my sports career.” And it begins: ahh, how can it be, why are you doing that, but you don’t understand at all!
How many times I’ve seen this and how many times I did not like it, I felt bad for the athlete. Because the attacks start: why, but we are your fans. Fans, cool, super, I love you, but sometimes you have a very painful perception of my personal decision.
My health has done a lot of work in this regard. I had big back problems, they were also at the Olympics, and after – I recovered for a long time. My back does not turn to one side. Right side – please, but all the jumps are jumped in that direction, to the left. It already doesn’t turn to that side, it has grown like that.
I can painlessly jump only salchow, perhaps also toe loop, but not always. Flip, lutz I don’t jump in principle: friends, you need to go there with a shoulder – it doesn’t work for me, purely physically. I love these jumps, but … Perhaps the age minimum will be raised to 25 – and I can go and try something.
But I am not saying goodbye to figure skating. In my life now there is 350 times more figure skating than it was in sports. I don’t get off the ice, and it’s cool. I can jump – but not at competitions, but in shows. Relatives and close people worried that I would disappear from figure skating. But nothing like that, friends. You didn’t call me, but I’m here.
Figure skating is my life, I can’t imagine myself without ice and skates. I truly live now, I can invest life energy. Yes, I have panic attacks, I faint from fainting, but I like it.
About personal life
Evgenia Medvedeva: I had my first love, quite strong. I cannot give a name, it is not necessary … (To Milokhin) Shut up, please, please, shut up!
Milokhin (narrowing his eyes with his fingers): He …
Evgenia Medvedeva: ### (damn), disgusting hint, let’s cut it out. No hints needed. It ended four years ago, I don’t want to bring that up. When you are from 16 to 18 years old, and you fall in love for the first time, think that’s it, you can’t even imagine that you can love more and stronger.
It all ended ugly, the Olympics ended. And in a difficult moment, when Olympics passed, right after it, a person did this. And just in plain text: thank you, I don’t need you anymore, everything is cool in my life and without you, bye!
We were together for almost two years, and after that I almost killed myself (Evgenia used a slang word with literely mean “hang yourself” but probably wanted to say that she felt very very bad). Because, damn it, I was worried about everything that happens in life. And now I understand: was it love? Well, strong sympathy or something.
I realized that it sucks when you love a person and see him perfect. You can’t see him perfect. Because if he’s perfect for you, it’s some kind of complete crap. You should see disadvantages, love must be conscious.
If you have a partner, you need to talk to him about the moments that do not suit you. Because it accumulates in me, and then I explode with such shit that, it seems to me, people do not want to communicate with me. My views on relationships have changed a lot. And I realized that family now…bro … well, no, not now.
Related topics: Evgenia Medvedeva
“Nothing can stop our girls from winning and skating amazingly. In Norway, there are no skaters at all, not a single person – what proposals can they make?”